Hi everyone,
I am a Birth Mother, I put my child up for adopted in 1979.we had a closed adoption.
We had our reunion about 10 years ago now. And we have kept in touch over the years at one point my child came to live with my husband and myself (my husband and I don’t have any children). Over the years my child and I have spent time with both her adopted family and my family meaning, brothers /sister families.... We have all got along reasonable well. My family took to my child, as they had never been away from us.
But I have to say at the time my child was born it was the toughest decision I have ever had to make in my life was to give up my child, as I never wanted it, but as a very young person, i know that it was the right thing, my child has had more then I could have ever given them. I have become a grandmother in the last 4 years.
But over the last few years, I have been going through some very strong feeling and I just don’t seam to get above them .I feel that I get a lot of mix signals and I just don’t know what I mean to my child .I have never expected to be anymore than her birth mother. But I feel at times that my child only visit me to see want she can get. I do see at time that my child gets jealous of my nephews and nieces.
Well I could go on, but think you will understand want I mean .I do love my child ,I just wish I could sort my feeling out…

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